Tuesday, January 27, 2015

When I Don't Understand...

I'll just let this song speak for me today...  I don't really have any words better than this.

Another negative pregnancy test today.  I don't understand why God doesn't bless my friends Adam & Natalie with a baby.  I don't understand why they have 6 babies in heaven.  I don't understand how He could ignore thousands of prayers for this.  I don't understand why His answer appears to be no.  I don't understand why it's so hard for good people to have babies.  I don't understand miscarriages.  I don't understand infertility.  I don't understand cancer.  I don't understand heartache and broken dreams.  I don't understand this fallen world.

... but I will choose you God!


6 comments:

the life of a nanny. said...

Your grace abounds in deepest waters. Praying for you today. I'm so sorry.

Susan Bennett said...

I love you Katie. So sorry this is happening

Deidre Malcom said...

Katie, I am not sure if you know this about Doug and I or not...We have had 5 miscarriages and one stillborn. Brandon and Ashlyn are the only two that survived. Only God has the answers. While we may want to have babies with our genes, there are many out there 'in the system' that need loving homes. Your friend have amazing hearts as do you and your husband. Keep praying and listening. That is all we can do.

~Deidre

JoyfullyHoldingOn said...

Oh, Katie and Natalie. I'm so sorry. The prayers for peace will continue to flow in.

Bradford L. Stevens said...

Sorry you are having the Job 38 experience Katie. Those moments of the dark soul of the night are hard. Yet, they lead us to conclusion of Job in Chapter 42: 5-6 where he says: I had heard of thee by the hearing of the ear, but now my eye sees thee;

Therefore I despise myself, and repent in dust and ashes." It is not all that satisfying of an answer until one experiences it one's soul. I think we can only see God through his Son and know it by His Holy Spirit. May the Lord grant to you His Peace that passes all understanding Katie. God bless.

cousin glenda said...

God has a plan in his own time --

although that does not help right now, Prayers with all of you.