So, the last couple days have been a blur, but the sun's out and life goes on.
When we got the awful call 2 days ago, both kids were still napping. When Micah woke up, I asked Eli if we should tell him, and Eli said yes. I sat down with him and I said, "Micah, you know Adam and Natalie's babies that the doctor put in Mommy? They went to heaven." He replies with the saddest, most serious face I've ever seen on him, "Oh man, why?!?" My only answer was "I don't know buddy, God just wanted them with Him" and he immediately accepted that and was content with that answer. It took me a minute to stop crying and realize that his incredible faith and simple understanding of life was exactly what I needed too. Faith like a child.
I also have to brag on our incredible pastor Joel and wife Linda (who also happens to be Natalie's aunt), and they are supposed to be on sabbatical, but they made an exception to come to our house that afternoon, just hours after our bad news to pray with us and hug on us. Love them so much, so thankful to be part of our local church family and under their leadership.
And then, we went out to eat with Adam & Natalie. I thought we would go out that night, but I was convinced it would be a night of celebration. It was not what we expected certainly, but it was a wonderful evening where we could begin healing and hoping again... and I am happy to announce here that we are going to try again!
Adam & Natalie have already invested a lot in this journey, but there are a lot of expenses that they will not have to repeat (initial doctor consultations, blood tests, legal work, counseling fees, etc.). However doing another round of IVF and another attempt at embryo transfer will entail another $13,000 in expenses for them. One of my friends (thanks Trishelle!) pointed me in the direction of GoFundMe.com to help raise money for them, so please consider making a donation for them. We expect that Dr. Milroy may slightly change our medications to give us a little better edge, AND we are hopeful that this time we will be able to do a fresh (not frozen) embryo transfer which will also improve our odds. We are all so thankful for so much support from friends & family, and would be thankful for any financial contribution you can make, but most importantly we covet your prayers! Please pray that God would grant us success.